Posts tagged anxiety
Modern Worship Music is Foreplay, Or Why I Hate Going to Church

So much of contemporary worship music has departed from traditional workings of lament, praise, and complicated confrontation with God. Instead, we sing “Blessed Be Your Name” until our ears bleed from the repetition. We need music that doesn’t simply invoke an orgiastic ecstasy with God. We need music that challenges and takes the theology we sing of seriously.

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What I Mean When I Say I Have a Panic Disorder

I remember the first time I had a panic attack; though, of course, I had no idea what was happening. I was a freshman in high school and I was in the middle of a quiz in math. Out of nowhere, a thought sprang into my mind: “How embarrassing would it be if you threw up right now?” And I couldn’t let it go. Suddenly it was the only thing I could think about – and terrifyingly, I started to feel some nausea creep into my stomach. Was I getting sick? I had no idea, but now I knew only one thing: I had to get out of there. I had to get away from the ticking clock and the silence interrupted only by the scratch of my classmate’s pencil. I couldn’t graph equations; I could barely see the paper.

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