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What I Mean When I Say I Have a Panic Disorder

I remember the first time I had a panic attack; though, of course, I had no idea what was happening. I was a freshman in high school and I was in the middle of a quiz in math. Out of nowhere, a thought sprang into my mind: “How embarrassing would it be if you threw up right now?” And I couldn’t let it go. Suddenly it was the only thing I could think about – and terrifyingly, I started to feel some nausea creep into my stomach. Was I getting sick? I had no idea, but now I knew only one thing: I had to get out of there. I had to get away from the ticking clock and the silence interrupted only by the scratch of my classmate’s pencil. I couldn’t graph equations; I could barely see the paper.

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